Frankly, I always have positive feeling over traffic which come to my blog - be it huge or tiny winy number of visitors. I don't mind. As long as there are visitors, I am happy. It makes me feel that whatever I have blogged here is being appreciated, just by a simple visit.However, mixing feelings occurred in me when I checked on my blog traffic meter in Nuffnang awhile ago. In fact, I checked it almost daily. Deep in my heart, I could sense a slightly tense and sour feelings as what I have seen wasn't something I expected, nor something I like.Not at all.The keywords which typed by the Google users in these few days have directed unexpected traffic to my latest blog post, "Still unacceptable, Gary Leon Robert". Never had I thought of his death has drawn so much attention from the public till the search for his news is still going in the Internet. Or maybe I should say Gary, a nice, charismatic guy has such a huge social network in which people are still caring for his news although he is in somewhere better now.After going through the emotional ride for almost a week, I noticed I have accepted his death. The hollow feeling has been filled up with new hopes and loves. I want to make my life more meaningful than ever by putting thoughts into action and showing loves and cares to people around me. I know, if I don't do things immediately, I might not have the chance once the call is being sent out - the call to heaven.Like what I have written in my assignment, 'Why I Picked Existential Theory For My Counseling Session', I am aware that life is fragile and I should appreciate every moment I have on Earth. Though I might not know what will happen tomorrow, at least I know what I should do now. Day dreaming without action wouldn't add any meaning to my life and I know I should do something.Thanks Gary for teaching me something important to both me and Eric. We are now appreciating each other more. Besides, I have this strong will to contribute something for my readers as well as the blogosphere by writing something useful and beneficial - be it informative, educational or hilarious post (like what I have been doing in these 2 years). Even if I am fated to die one day, I want to leave something useful for my fellow readers (my family, friends and you).I guess I have been thinking too much lately but I know, this is something good. It has allowed me to grow and improve myself. Thanks Gary and my readers. I have learnt so much from you guys.Have a good weekend people!:)
